It is Sunday and this weekend has been the first that I have not been in my sad place. I guess we have been so busy it has kept my mind off of the sadness. I have of course had moments, many, where the tears flow freely down my face.
Ali went to Kids Cancer Care Camp this weekend, drop off was hard, just 3 short months ago we were dropping Grant off and he was feeling so good, excited and apprehensive. We saw the kids he met who had such a great impact on him, who he became fast friends with and it was hard, missing him. He came back having had such a fantastic experience, and I hope Ali has the same sort of experience. The bus pulled up while I was typing, seeing the hugs all around brought tears to my eyes, again why Grant??? Ali enjoyed camp, made great friends and could just "be" that is all I could ask for, our new family continues to support and surround us with love. Life is so unfair in many ways, the taking of my boy at such a young age, but his forged relationships live on for the rest of us. I love that about Grant, he shared stories about us with people so when the awkward moments of that initial meeting arrive- there is no awkwardness, just a feeling of "knowing".
I have heard more of Grants songs his weekend than I have for a while, usually it is one here and there. Last night 3 in a row played, he was definatly with us- I miss his off key singing though, and his larger than life presence, I will forever.
I love you Turkey Face and miss you every minute, thanks for watching over your sister this weekend, you knew she would love camp, and she did.
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