Baby Steps

We did it- we took our first real baby step and made it through Grant's Birthday. It was a tough day, filled with tears and remembrance, sadness and laughter. Again, the lead up was worse than the actual day. I want to thanks everyone for the concerns and caring and prayers for us on his day.Ali stayed home with me and we spent the day comforting each other, and sharing memories. Mom, Dad, Gaye, Richard, Ricky and Geoff joined Jim, Ali and I for Roast Beef and Yorkshire pudding- Grant's usual birthday supper. Gaye brought us all Booster Juices- remembering the smile on his face brought tears to all of us, he was so happy to have something besides water, the smallest things.......We celebrated his life and although he is no longer here on earth, I know his was watching over us and celebrating with us, he loved it when we were all together. I received a beautiful sign from him in the wee hours of the morning- I couldn't sleep and was thinking of him and I felt his hand intertwine with mine, it was the realest moment I have had with him and I thanked him. He allowed me to get some more rest and comforted me when I needed it- that was and is Grant, always there for me.

Jim and I attended a Service of Remembrance at Grace Lutheran Church in Drumheller on Wednesday, a beautiful time of reflection and remembering. It was comforting to be in the sanctuary, I remembered all the times since he was a baby that we had spent in there. His voice singing the songs and speaking the words put up on the screen, I miss him........

Our village has surrounded us at this time with so much love, we are blessed to have such an abundance of support. He has been remembered by so many people and celebrated in many different ways- thank you to all who have shared with us, Grant has brought out the humanity in all of us, I just hope it continues.

And now Christmas, the time to celebrate the birth of our Saviour. I find myself drawing many parallel lines with Grant and Jesus. Grant was our gift on earth for such a short time, and who knows what lessons he taught to each of us, but I do know we all have learned from him in one way or another. And now he gets to spend Christmas face to face with that saviour, it is a comfort to me in this trying time. I will close with a poem that we got at the Coping Seminar- it says it all and makes me cry- I love you Grant and wish you were with us, it won't be the same without you.....

I’m Spending Christmas with Jesus this Year!

I see the countless Christmas Trees, around the world below,

With Tiny lights, like heavens stars, reflecting in the snow.

The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away that tear,

For I’m spending Christmas with Jesus this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs, that people hold so dear,

But the sounds of music can’t compare

with the Christmas choir up here.

For I have no words to tell you, the joy their voices bring.

For it is beyond description, to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me, I see the pain in your heart…

But please try to understand

I’m spending Christmas with Jesus this year.

I can’t tell you of the splendor, or the peace here in this place.

Can you imagine Christmas, with our Saviour face to face?

I’ll ask Him to light your spirit as I tell Him of your love.

So then pray for one another as you lift your eyes above.

So please let your hearts be joyful, and let your spirit sing.

For I’m spending Christmas in Heaven

And I’m walking with the King.

Merry Christmas to each of you, hold your family close and enjoy your time together, cherish everything...Love to all

Day by Day.....